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Being Aware of Being Aware

 Recently, someone asked me if ‘being aware of being aware’ is the only spiritual practice we need to focus on?

Yes, at a particular stage, it pretty much all comes down to this. The path becomes pretty simple and basic. It becomes a practice of ‘nonattachment’ from our desires. When we become aware of an attachment, we adjust to becoming nonattached. We pay attention when we need to change in some way to keep our self clean from any thought-forms which might snag or imprison us.

There might be times when an emotional issue or past wound will come to the surface, and we will be called to self examine or heal another layer from the past. After the issues are seen and worked on, we continue to be in awareness until there is something else to address. As we go, the emotional issues and wounds become less and less, and we become more joyful and free from incumbrances.

Because we have become freer, we might be given more knowledge into the workings of the universe. If so, we should humbly, take in the information, and work with it to expand our understanding while we stay in awareness. And at some point, staying in awareness will become second nature or who we are, and we won’t need to practice, to practice it anymore.


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Dark Night Of The Soul #2

I was asked recently, once again, to speak about the coming shift and the collective dark night of the soul, and where we can look for support while we are personally in the process.

The dark night of the soul teaches us what doesn’t kill us will make us stronger. It is a time in which we start to realize we are not in control of our lives like we thought we were. It is possible during such a cycle, we might not have people around us who have had such an experience and can support and understand our process. Your higher self will send people or a person to you for your support if this is something you require.

Usually, at this time on our path, we are our own best company to keep. We know what adjustments need to happen within ourselves during this time and what issues need pondering, and we don’t need to be distracted from our work. As everything gets stripped away from us, we might feel like dying. It can also be a time of mourning for the death or diminishing of our ego-self, which will make room for the new us to emerge when we are ready.

Many around us, who do not understand what is happening to us, might feel uncomfortable about what is taking place. If you need others for support in the process, I would seek out spiritual people who are sincere and wise, and perhaps have gone through such a thing already.

Collectively, we are in a holding period at the moment, which makes it challenging to move forward, and it’s exhausting. There are astrological reasons for this, and also because of the larger cycle of the coming shift. During this time, our job as a lightworker, is to keep focused on our goals, even thou there seems to be no movement happening. It helps when we understand we are in a holding pattern and not to get frustrated or lose our hope when the motion is so slow. I have witnessed these holding patterns a few times before, as they are connected to possible windows for the shift to happen and for us to awaken into a new, higher-dimensional dream.

During similar times in the past, I witnessed the Earth deciding not to go forward with the shift, but to wait. She chose to delay the completion of this old dream for a few more years. The delay allows for more extreme lessons on the current 3-D teaching field. It also enabled lightworkers to ascend higher than the 5th Dimension, which was the initially planned density of the beginning of the new dream. Many don’t realize the delays from 26 years ago, evolved the lightworkers, beyond the density of the 5th dimension for the new dream. We have been at the precipice of the shift for 26 years now, and I have been watching the delays since then. This is also when I went through my third dark night of the soul, personally. During this time, memories arose of pervious dreams and shifts my being was involved in.

At this time, it appears the beginning of the new dream will happen in the 6th to 9th dimensions or densities. The veils between the teaching field and the other side will be very thin. Right now, thou, this current window feels different from the other windows we passed, by, so we shall see what happens with this window. All we can do is ride the wave and watch. None of us are alone or without challenges now. It helps to remember everything is alright, ultimately, and we are being guided and cared for through this very significant time.

Be gentle on yourself and others, and one day we will wake up in a very advanced, futuristic, peaceful world as the new teaching field.


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Dark Night of The Soul

I was asked to speak about the “dark night of the soul” and my personal experience of it. Below is what I said:

As a lightworker, to do and be what I was designed for in this incarnation, I needed my attachments and limiting beliefs to be stripped away. In our life, this is precisely what the dark night of the soul does. Throughout my life, I have been through many dark nights of the soul. Transformation is indeed painful, but necessary if we are to grow into a butterfly.

Through this transformational process, I learned the importance of letting go so that I can live my life now practicing continual letting go. It is surprising how easy it is to forget to let go and why it is an ongoing practice. After experiencing so many dark nights of the soul, the ego becomes diminished enough that we realize we can live in perpetual transformation, by using the dynamics of unattachment and acceptance. It is much more enjoyable to accept what needs to be accepted rather than to stay in resistance against something.

Collectively, the Earth is in the process and going through a type of dark night of the soul, and will come out the other side into a new dream or teaching field, which will be less dense. Until we make the shift into the higher frequency, the reality we are in now on the teaching field, will continue to be challenging and a bit crazy. We are very close to this event taking place now… literally it could happen any day now.

Peace to all of you and hold on tight. The ride will be over soon, and it will be worth all the hardships. 🙂


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Lost Connection to Self

I recently answered someone’s question: “What are the signs that show that you lost the connection to your true self?”

When we feel cut off from our higher self or our soul/spirit self, we might become depressed, worried, or uninspired in our lives. Our lives might no longer make sense to us. The joy we once had will be overshadowed with doubts of unsureness of who we are and what we are doing. For whatever reason, this is a cycle that sometimes happens to us. It tests our degrees of faith and makes us go deeper into our being to find the most subtleness of connections to our higher self.

Usually, the seeming, lost connection is beyond our control, and it is not something we did wrong or can bring back on our own. For some, this might be a dark night of the soul period, or it might be a time where our connection just seems hidden from us. When it happens, it feels like we have lost our ability to get the guided answers we are used to relying on. Or, we might feel our intuition is not working for us anymore.

It can be a time of confusion and a time of not trusting our own self for our answers. We might also feel we have been abandoned, and it might bring up abandonment issues for us to heal. We might have fears that this is how our life will be from now on. However, the cycle usually changes, and at some point, we regain our access to our internal connection again and our higher understanding.


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Seeing the Higher Dimensions

Recently someone asked me, “Why can’t we see the higher dimensions, but we can see the lower dimensions?”

I can only answer this from a spiritual perspective. At the moment, the teaching field of this Earth school is taking place primarily in the third dimension, so the vision of what our physical eyes can see is limited. Seeing the higher dimensions beyond this requires a different kind of vision than just our physical, third-dimensional eyes. Some of us can easily see the higher dimensions, while in this 3-D body because we have evolved our consciousness into the higher dimensions. The higher dimensions are more subtle and can often be overlooked and not seen at all by those who have yet to develop or have their third eye or 6th chakra completely open.

The 6th chakra is tied to the 6th dimension. The Earth consists of 13 dimensions. For us to see beyond what the physical, third-dimensional eyes can see, we need to see with the eyes of our spirit and soul or higher self. We need to use our connection to our higher self, residing in the higher dimensions to see. We naturally expand our vision by developing a conscious relationship with who we are in the higher dimensions. As beings, we will only ever able to see up to the level where our higher self resides.

Once we begin to awaken beyond the third-dimension, the part of us who has incarnated into the physical plane can be used to push the boundaries to help our higher self expand beyond their current dimensional awareness. This is why incarnation into the human body is so valuable. To have a human, with this potential, is powerful because we become our own pioneer and tool for new growth, and expansion to happen in the higher dimensions. This kind of growth is a push-pull event, whereby all the selves (soul, higher self and physical self), work as a team to grow our being.


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Spiritual Loneliness

Eternity by Sheilan

Recently someone asked me: “Why do I feel so alone while on the spiritual path?” Below is my response. 

We walk this life and the spiritual path alone, and yes, it can be lonely at times. The more we have consciously awakened, the less isolated we tend to feel because of the inner growth which has taken place. When we connect and integrate more with our higher self, the gaps of loneliness we feel are filled up with awakened consciousness and the understanding of Self. We no longer feel the separation of Self so strongly. Our higher self (the spirit self) spends eternity growing and evolving to become lighter within the spectrum of our creation.

Yes, the loneliness can considerably lessen, the more conscious we become. However, from my perspective, while we are embodied, no matter how enlightened we become, it is only natural to feel a bit of loneliness at times. It is a misconception to think that all loneliness simply disappears with enlightenment. If one is in any kind of form, spirit, human or whatever, there will always be a slight kind of loneliness because this is the nature of having a form, and it is inherent in all matter. The spirit self or form will always yearn for higher degrees of light energy and to keep evolving. This yearning is a type of loneliness that pushes our being forward to forever becoming more conscious.

Again, from my perspective, it is not possible no matter how enlightened, while in a form, for this aspect to be gone entirely. While in a form, and if we are enlightened, we exist as a conscious paradox. When consciousness realizes itself, it becomes eternal. Conscious beings do not need to dissolve back into the One because their consciousness has become One. They are a paradox. They will forever be in Oneness thou striving for greater Oneness while in form. We all exist as both spirit (form) soul (energy), and both need to be understood and acknowledged.


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A Need for Struggle and Strife

I was recently asked this question: “Is it more often than not struggle and strife which makes people spiritual?”

Pain is a great motivator, and yes, because of this growth is painful. We are naturally spiritual beings. Earth is a school for beings to learn and grow and evolve. Part of the curriculum of the school is for us to grow through tough lessons, aided by a system that some call karma.

Karma is a learning system whereby we are held accountable for all our actions. Our spirit self needs to heal the parts of ourself, which are damaged and to balance our self with all other energies.

The more evolved we become, the more aware we are of our spiritual nature. And the more evolved we become, growing can become less painful. When our spirit or higher self has learned what we came here to learn, we can move on from incarnating into the third dimension and graduate from this Earth school.

The semester of our current classroom is coming to an end soon. This is why the lessons have become more intense. A new, bright, and shiny semester will start soon, and all will be right with the world for a time. Some religions call this period on Earth “the Golden Age” or “Heaven on Earth” or “Age of Aquarius”.  The peaceful time on Earth will last for a few thousand years, and then the regular teachings of struggle and strife will return on the teaching field.

We can mitigate the pain of growth by learning to let go and go with the flow of our life rather than resist what is happening. When we remember life in these human bodies is a school, and we are the representative for the real student who is our higher self, life seems to be less painful as we grow.


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